28 November 2015
Just had a most wonderful Thanksgiving dinner with friends, only to find out that Thom is not returning after Christmas. Maybe I am in a cyclical emotional state, but today I feel deep sadness. Yes, for Thom, but also for all the people I have met here who have left and I miss. I will confess to being rather melancholic for this whole month so forgive me as I give in to it a bit and share my pain.
I have read and shared articles that are much more eloquent than I about the craziness of this come-and-go expat life. Particularly in the international education community where contracts are typically two years this is status quo. Bonds develop at an accelerated pace and can be quite fierce. Then suddenly, that person leaves and takes a little bit of you with them. Thankfully, they also leave a little bit of themselves behind…dishes, clothes, plants, and of course, memories. Thankful for those.
As I am here longer, I find I am missing the people – family and friends from home more and more. While I am very much trying to live into the moments here and make this home, it is temporary so it is more just where I live now. I can see why people buy stuff, trying to create a more homey environment and instill themselves into their place. I, too, have succumbed a bit, in spite of my proclamations about downsizing. Ack!
All this to say, I am inordinately excited about being home for Christmas and also sorrowful in the knowledge of those who will not be returning. Tears.